The Magical Drink
Updated: Jul 14, 2020
By Valarie Umar
The sunniest and happiest place in southern California. That was how
the marriage therapist described it to me anyway. I had only been married for
ten months, the therapist figured she knew the remedy for a case like mine and
that was a 24 hour stay at a suite. My husband Carlile, who I wished to divorce,
walked in the suite with that smirk on his face. That smirk he made when he
was impressed by something, the same smirk he made as he watched me walk
down the wedding aisle, how immature.
“This is beautiful,” Carlile said. He set his suitcase on top of a chair nearby. He
walked around the suite exploring the craftmanship of the room.
“Look at this sweetie,” he said, as he opened the door to the small balcony.
“Yes, simply fascinating,” I said.
The only thing that caught my eye was a bottle of wine left in the suite, a gift
from the marriage therapist I supposed. I didn’t hesitate to crack it open. I didn’t
want to be cooped up in this suite with a man who I wanted to divorce already. It
was that promise he made before we married… I remembered the promise, but
apparently, he did not. Carlile, he was not a bad man, he was just a dedicated
lawyer. So dedicated in fact, that as I made myself a glass of wine to drink, he
was setting up his computer near the room telephone. I sat atop one of the beds,
the sound of click clacking on a keyboard was the only background noise in the
room for several hours. I continued to take sips of my wine, rolling it around in
the glass like a tornado. I gently kicked my leg back and forth against the bed as I
watched the clock change time. I tried not to make eye contact with Carlile, not
that he would notice me looking at him anyway. I dreaded the idea of us sitting
in that room like this for the next 15 hours.
“Ah, okay finally done,” Carlile said.
He slammed his laptop closed and looked over at me. There was that smirk
again, uh. He waltzed on over to my bed and leaned in for a kiss. “How did this
happen, this suite, that bottle of wine your finishing alone,” Carlile asked. He ran
his fingers through my hair as he sat beside me staring at me as if he could see
into my conscious. Something about this drink, it was making me feel guilty as I
looked back into his eyes. I had not told him that I wanted a divorce. I figured he
was so busy being a lawyer he wouldn’t care to hear about it. I refilled my glass of
wine and twirled it around and then the room phone began to ring. As Carlile
reached to answer it he kept his eyes on me.
“Hello… yes this is Carlile…” I glared at him, as I dreadfully listened to the third
work call he’s received since we arrived at the suite. I thought back to how the
therapist described this place as happy. The only happy thing about this place
was the wine, which had finally settled in and this over whelming feeling came
over me. Enough was enough. How could he sit there and take a work call! His
work…always getting in the way and it was because he let it! He continued to
study me while on the phone and he looked at me in a way he never had before,
as if he was suddenly coming to a realization.
“Contact me tomorrow, goodbye,” Carlile said.
He hung up the phone and didn’t say anything for a moment. I watched to see
what he would do next. The room looked fuzzy and I felt funny. This drink, it
was bringing out a side of me I never experienced.
“I’ve never seen you drink before,” Carlile said.
I got up from the bed, a little wobbly but I could still manage.
“Let’s go outside,” I said.
He needed to be away from his computer, away from the phone, for two
damn minutes. I went outside on the balcony taking the bottle of wine with
me and there was that sun the therapist told me about. Carlile followed me. We
sat across from one another.
“I wish to divorce you,” I said.
I finally had said it. Carlile looked hopelessly at me and then at his wedding
band. That look of despair on my husband’s face, my dear Carlile. There was
nothing I could do but tell Carlile the truth and it was because of this wine.
“Your promise Carlile, you didn’t keep your promise!”
Carlile's mouth fell slightly open and he continued to look at his wedding band,
his eyes began to water. I never seen him cry before. He pulled me to him and
“Oh sweetie, why, why did you never tell me?”
It was at that moment I realized I did love this man. It was my own pride
preventing me from seeing that.
“I’ve just been so occupied with work after law school I completely forgot I
promised you a baby,” he said.
The words I have been waiting to hear and there it was, I stared at the magical
drink that saved my marriage. I picked it up and drank the last few ounces of
wine exposing a message that was hiding at the bottom of the bottle. I read it
aloud, “Being vulnerable in love, is the purest love of all.”
As I sat there across Carlile he looked at me with that smirk on his face.
I smiled and placed my hand on him.
“My dear Carlile,” I said.