Running to Freedom & Peace

Today is one of those days where I wish I could run away, far away.

Physically I could get in my car and start driving somewhere, sure, but at the same time, I can't. Why? Because my mind told me I can't.

Isn't that crazy? How our own mind lies to us? Religious people may call that "the devil" oh the devil is a liar, he will try and get you to do things that ruin your life.

I learned for myself that there is no devil. There is just your psychical programmed mind and your higher self. And my higher self tells me I need to run away as fast as I can.

Isn't it crazy that our programming and conditioning we experienced our whole up bringing stops us from becoming our highest self?

See all programming is low vibrational. Fear. Depression. Isolation. Lying. Stealing. Guilt. Multiple sex partners. Cheating.

That isn't who you really are. Those are things that your physical mind has conditioned you to react and behave because it's on autopilot.

It's time to get off autopilot and take control of things. And it is no way easy, but it is something that must be done if you want freedom.

Yes, freedom.

I still live with my parents after 27 years. Can you believe it? And I can sit here and make excuses as to why I still live here, but I am tired of excusing myself!

I have been wanting to leave here for so long... since I was a teenager really, and I have to ask myself, "Why are you still here?"

I will tell you why. Comfortable. Recognizable. Routine. Trauma bonding. Programming. Negative energy around me. Causing me to have low vibrational thoughts or actions. Low self confidence. People who send me or my kids ill intention. Jealousy. Hate. Depression.

An yet... those are all still excuses. I keep on waiting for a miracle to happen for me. A rich man. A random $20,000 check. Someone to offer to give me a place to live.

Stop waiting on a miracle and start creating your own. And you do that by taking action.

By keeping your vibration high. Performing as your highest self. Giving and receiving love on a daily basis. Getting rid of bad habits. Letting go of toxic relationships.

I have been dreaming of getting away from my parents home for several years now. And I did at one point but I was not happy there either. I left one emotionally abusive household for another.

I just want to be alone. I NEED to be alone. To heal. I can't heal here. I can't heal in the same place where I was broken down. Do you understand?

And as vulnerable as it is for me to publicly post about my pain... I know that this will not be permanent. And I want to share this journey with everyone. The ups and the downs.

I will be free some day. I know I will. I don't know when, but I know I will. And I will kiss the floor of my new home. Where I can finally heal and be with my higher self in Peace and Harmony.